The vast majority of my photography gear is packed up and will soon be on it’s way to Virginia.
I’m having mixed feelings about it. Since moving to ND, I just don’t have the photography opportunities I used to, or I don’t have the time. Lately, though, it’s been that I don’t have the inclination. The thought of selling it all occurred when that massive tax bill hit earlier in the year. At that time it seemed inconceivable…thankfully I didn’t have to sell then. However, since that time I’ve realized that I seem to have lost my passion for it. Well, that and the bills that seem to continue with no end in sight. But who doesn’t have that to deal with?
I wonder how I could have lost something that seemed as important, to me, as breathing. But yet, it’s gone. Maybe instead of being so intent on photographing a “moment” maybe I am doing more to live in that “moment”? I don’t know? I still have my little point and shoot that goes with me everywhere and fits in my purse. And for now, that is enough. Maybe the passion will return? Maybe not? In any event the technology is ever evolving and will continue to be available should I find that passion once again.
Filed under: All About Pam, Photography
I understand this. We, as humans, are naturally inclined to hold on to things. Sometimes what we’re holding onto are stories we tell ourselves about ourselves.
I’m glad you’re letting go of the camera equipment. You may come back to it someday. In the meantime, you’re making space to grow in a new direction. Where will you go?
Well said Porter, I was thinking the same thing, but didn’t know quite how to say it!.
It’s hard to let go of things we love, but something else will replace it, and you can always go back to it again if you really miss it.
I have to agree as well. It is a relief and freeing to get rid of those things and remove that weight of guilt for not using them. It leaves room for new ideas and different things to take their place. I haven’t talked to you in ages but I hope all is well with you and yours!